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15 Random Things about April Osbourne

15 Random Things About Me: 

1. I hate talking on the phone. I do it all day long at work, so when I am at home, I have all I can do to NOT turn my phone off. I've gotten rid of my land line, and only have a cell phone. Yes. I am one of THOSE people. (hangs head). I prefer to communicate via email, text or in person. 

2. I am not a morning person. I have never been a morning person. I can say with complete confidence that I will NEVER be a morning person.  I admire people who can get up and exercise in the morning. It takes me a good hour to be communicative. My Mom told my husband the best advise on being married to me: "Don't talk to her for the 1st 10 minutes she is awake". 

3. I am an introvert. I may come off as cool, or even rude, but the truth is, I am just quiet. I don't talk a lot unless I am comfortable with the person or people. 

4. I am a home-body. I love just being at home, hanging out with my husband, John and Boston Terrier, Ozzy. 

5. I LOVE animals. I wish I had more room, and more money to keep me busy with animals full time. 

6. Pets I own: Ozzy, my Boston Terrier, Charlotte, my Chilean Rose Tarantula, 10 Finches, Green Tree Python, and Charlie, my Betta fish. 

7. My first 1 bedroom apartment I shared with John, we had the following pets, (all at the same time); 3 Boa Constrictors, 1 Reticulated Python, 1 Cockatiel, 1 Iguana, 3 Cats (Siamese, Persian and Himalayan) and a 45 gallon fish tank. 

8. I am a firm believer in Karma. I've seen it in action, I know its real. Huge respect for Karma.

9. My favorite book is The Stand by Stephen King. I re-read it often. 

10. I am an Empath - and am learning how to manage it. 

11. My favorite color is Purple. While I love all shades of purple, I prefer dark purple. Would love to have a dark purple car someday. 

12. Mis-Aligned tombstones in cemeteries creep me out to no end. 

13. Someday, when John and I can afford it, I (desperately) want to go to Disneyworld. I know we'd have a great time together. I've been there, John has not. 

14. I went out on my first date with John, my husband on April 17th 1993. We got married in Las Vegas on April 17th 1997. I later found out that my Dad asked my Mom to marry her on April 17th, 1970. 

15. I love horror movies and scary movies. My favorite horror series: Phantasm

Bones

You'll meet me in the light

Freakishly accurate Capricorn traits that fit me to a T

Most dangerous

Health

Say, said

Hard to trust

Sad Songs

Isn't it funny how music can evoke certain emotions? Specifically, music that makes you cry.  

Here are some songs that make me tear up every time. 

How Great Thou Art  - it doesn't matter who sings it, be it a church choir, Elvis Presley, etc. If I hear this song, its guaranteed that I will cry.  When my Grandma Maty died, she wanted it sang at her funeral, all 4 verses. Just thinking about it makes me tear up.  

Ashoken Farewell  - its an old civil war song my Dad found years ago that he just loves. I am able to make it through the song most days, some days not. He wants it played at his funeral, and he learned to play it on guitar.  

Puff the Magic Dragon - there is one part in the song, where the verse goes: "without his lifelong friend, Puff could not be brave...." this is how I felt when my Katie died.  As I type this tears are streaming down my face. Thus, I avoid this song. 

Old Rivers - a one hit wonder (I think?) from the 50's - makes me cry. 

Never Be This Young Again - Don't know who originally sang this, but my aunt and uncle sang it one time and the words really tell a story. Tears!

Take Your Memory With You - I love this song by Vince Gill. I discovered it right around the time I lose my sweet Rommy. If I am in the right mood, I will cry.

What song makes you cry?

Wisdom Quote

Talk Stephen King: The Stand Will Be An 8 Part Mini-Series

Talk Stephen King: The Stand Will Be An 8 Part Mini-Series: YES! yes yes yes!

For Katie and Rommy.

Run or learn

Sad, but true.

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
 

What comes around...

Yesterday tomorrow and today

They said

What is Karma?

Karma (car-ma) is a word meaning the result of a person's actions as well as the actions themselves. 

It is a term about the cycle of cause and effect. 

According to the theory of Karma, what happens to a person, happens because they caused it with their actions.

Doggy bedtime prayer

Learn

Don't

Everything is temporary but love

Lessons

Five rules

It's easy to judge

Me

Truth

Its not the first chapter that matters but the whole story

Someday we'll forget the hurt, the reason we cried and who caused us pain. 

We will finally realize that the secret of being free is not revenge but letting things unfold in their own way and own time. 

After all, what matters is not the first, but the last chapter of our life which shows how well we ran the race. 

So smile, laugh, forgive, believe and love all over again. 

Forgive ? Yes! Excuse? No.

Being a good person

Hm.

When

Toxic

Never chase

I am enough

Ozzy extreme close up

Good luck Rachel

Anxiety

Building a wall

Thought of the day

Old Fashioned Butter Cake

Old Fashioned Butter Cake
(from Reeni's Cinnamon Girl blog)  

2 cups all-purpose flour, sifted
1  1/4 cup sugar
1 tablespoon baking powder
1 teaspoon salt

1/2 cup butter, softened
1 cup milk
1 teaspoon vanilla extract

2 eggs

Preheat oven to 350*F.  Grease and flour two 8 inch x 2 inch baking pans and set aside.

In a large mixing bowl sift together the flour, sugar, baking powder and salt.

Add butter, milk, and vanilla.  With a hand mixer, beat for  2 minutes, occasionally scraping down the sides of the bowl.  

Add eggs and beat for 2 minutes more.

Pour batter into prepared pans, dividing equally between the pans.  Bake 30 to 35 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into the center comes out clean.  Remove from oven.

Cool in the pans for 10 minutes and then turn cakes out onto a cooling rack to cool completely.

Frost with your favorite frosting.  I used my favorite chocolate frosting, the one on the back of the Hersey's cocoa can.  

"Perfectly Chocolate" Chocolate Frosting

1 stick (1/2 cup) butter or margarine
2/3 cup Hershey's cocoa
3 cups powdered sugar (confectioners' sugar)
1/3 cup milk  (plus an additional few drops to make a nice consistency)
1 teaspoon vanilla

Melt butter.  Stir in cocoa.  Alternately add powdered sugar and milk, beating on medium speed to spreading consistency.  Add more milk if needed.  Stir in vanilla.  About 2 cups frosting

Reflections

Healthy thoughts

You’re in charge of your happiness

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This is your life, this is the only life that you’re ever gonna get and you’re in charge of your happiness. Don’t let anybody ever take that away from you. You go out there and you live your life and if you fall down, you need to pick yourself back up and you keep going because there’s always gonna be bad stuff, but there’s gonna be so much good stuff. So don’t ever forget that. If you change the way that you look at things, the things you look at change. Chelsea Handler If you really want to live your life to the fullest and realize your greatest potential, you must be willing to run the risk of making some people mad. People may not like what you do, people may not like how you do it, but these people are not living your life. You are! —Iyanla Vanzant

iPad

So for Valentines day, John, (to whom I affectionately refer to as: "King of the Husbands") bought me an iPad Air 2. In Gold.

Previously, I had a Kindle he bought me a few Christmas' ago, so I am familiar with the "Tablet" craze. Loved my Kindle, LOVED. I almost felt guilty, like I was somehow abandoning my beloved Kindle for the new iPad.

As soon as I started using the iPad, all feelings of guilty disappeared. I LOVE this thing, and because I have it on my Verizon account, I can use it anywhere and access the internet. Also, its linked with my iPhone, it displays any text messages I receive.

You know what else rocks? When I work out on my elliptical, I can watch something on Hulu Plus, Netflix, or my new favorite - Youtube. I created a work out playlist specifically for my iPad when I work out.

My name is April Osbourne, and I am a techy geek.

No matter how hopeless things seem, you will make it!

Sometimes the door closes on a relationship, not because we failed, but because something bigger than us says this no longer fits our life. So, lock the door, shed your tears. When you are ready, turn around and look for the new door that’s opened. It’s a sign that you’re no longer that person you were, it’s time to change into who you are. It’s going to be okay.” — Lee Goff    All of the times you felt this anxious and this overwhelmed. All of the times you felt this level of pain. And remind yourself how each time, you made it through. Life has thrown so much at you, and despite how difficult things have been, you’ve survived. Breathe and trust that you can survive this too. Trust that this struggle is part of the process. And trust that as long as you don’t give up and keep pushing forward, no matter how hopeless things seem, you will make it.” ~Daniell Koepke

On a lighter note...

You Didn't

You didn't congratulate me on my promotion to office manager.

You didn't wish me a happy 40th birthday.

You didn't wish me a happy 41st birthday.

You were not around when I found out I have Gastroparisis.

You watched me struggle with severe clinical depression when you had the remedy that would have stopped it all, but you didn't. 

When I was in a minor fender bender, you didn't call or email to make sure I was okay.

The communication stopped for something I did not do.

None of these things sound like how you would treat someone you LOVE.

Now its too late. 

The damage has been done.

There is no going back, and nothing will ever fix it. 

Sometimes

For You

I no longer have patience for certain things...

I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. 

I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. 

I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. 

I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. 

I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. 

I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance.

I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. 

I hate conflict and comparisons. 

I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. 

In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal.

I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. 

Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. 

And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.

The above text was written and published by the great Portuguese Author, Jose Micard Teixeira

Karma, Baby

One Broken Heart for Sale

Its been a year and a half and you'd think that by now, my heart would have healed. 

But just THINKING about the entire situation makes my heart, my soul, my inner being just cry out in pain. Not a crying sort of pain, but deeper than that.  

I've considered going back to see Dr. Keller and talking about it, but to what end? Will it take the pain away? Answer any questions? Solve the problem? 

No. 

All seeing Dr. Keller would solve is forcing me to relive it. To explain what happened, who said what, how it made me feel, etc.  Right now I don't feel that I am strong enough to go through it all again. 

The point I am at now, is how to move on and learn to trust loved ones again. How to allow people in to my life without fear. 

 Truthfully, the only person I place 100 percent of my trust, my being in, without fear is John, my husband. (and my cousin, Heather). 

When I think of what brought all of this pain to where I am today, what started it, or rather, WHO started, I feel blinding rage. 

I don't understand how anyone could inflict the kind of damage that has been done to a family member. I don't know if I want to understand. 

I can say the one thing that brings me GREAT comfort is my strong belief in Karma. You can run, but you can't hide. 

I guess what I really want, is for the pain to go away, and to never have to feel the way I do now, and have felt for the last year and a half. 

Thanks for reading. 

Truth

No one can understand the pain I feel in my heart.

It has been shattered in such a way that I don't think I will ever recover. I don't know how long it will take for me to allow any one close again. 

The only one who holds 100% of my trust and that I am completely safe if all ways is John. 

Be patient with me. I am going to need time to heal. 

Roy Clark - Sally Was A Good Ole Girl

Accept me or walk away

There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. 

You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. 

Forget the bad, and focus on the good. 

Love the people who treat you right, pray for the ones who don't. 

Life is too short to be anything but happy. 

Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living.

There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:

This is me damn it!  I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel,
love the way I love!  I am a whole complex package.  Take me. . . or leave me.

Accept me--or walk away!  

Do not try to make me feel like less of a person,just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold.  

If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.

When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad--you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.