Land of Osbourne

​There was a time when I would have done anything for you, I loved you so much.   I knew you had flaws, I'd seen them transpire first hand, but despite it all, I loved you. Even now as I type that, I wonder why. I even defended you to others, who saw you for who you were, but love blinded me. Never in a thousand years did I think you were capable of hurting me in such a selfish, intense manner, although based on what I know of your history,and who you are to your core, I shouldn't have been surprised. ​ I thought that you loved me the same way I loved you.  I was wrong.  If you truly love someone, you are nearly incapable of hurting them, for you don't wish to see them in pain, much less be the one who caused it. Do I still love you?  No. (and I had to look deep for the answer)  I'm nearly convinced I never knew who you were at all. Nothing will change my mind on this. The person that I loved does not exist anymore, if SH...

​So, every 6 weeks, I have to have an IV infusion of a type of "Chemo-Therapy" drug called Remicade. I have been on Remicade since mid 2001.  Remicade + Immuran is what is keeping me alive, for all intents and purposes. (Immuran is a pill I take)​ This combination of drugs are used to combat Crohns Disease, the type I have, specifically, is: Crohns Colitis.  Rare Fewer than  200,000  US cases per year Treatment can help, but this condition can't be cured Requires a medical diagnosis Lab tests or imaging often required Chronic: can last for years or be lifelong Crohn's disease can sometimes causes life-threatening complications. Crohn's disease can cause abdominal pain, diarrhea, weight loss, anemia, and fatigue. Some people may be symptom free most of their lives, while others can have severe chronic symptoms that never go away. Crohn's disease cannot be cured. Medications such as steroi...

This is the way the world ends This is the way the world ends This is the way the world ends Not with a bang but a whimper TS Elliott